Reflective Long Run

Date: August 21, 2011

Distance: 8 miles

Time: 1:39:46

Despite being out the door by 9:00 a.m., today was a very hot run. Rocco joined me for the beginning portion, but I knew early on that I would have to loop back to the house and drop him off after just a couple of miles. After dropping him off at home, I finished the remaining six miles in reflective thought.

Yesterday, I attended the viewing of  a 23-year-old man who chose to take his own life. He was the son of a colleague who ran one of the Ragnar Relays with me. I thought of the grief his family must be going through and I thought about all of the challenges that life throws at us–especially during our teenage and early adult years.

Of course, I also thought of my children. I thought of my three teenagers and wondered what challenges life will give them over the next few years and I prayed that they will be able to face those challenges with confidence and strength. I also thought of our baby, who would have been about sixteen months old right now had she not been taken away so unexpectedly. I thought about how my friend and I now have one more thing in common besides our work and our running. We have both lost children.

Today’s run was truly a meditation. I didn’t find any answers, but I will keep searching and keep running. As one of my running songs reminds me, even when your hope is gone, move along, move along just to make it through.

Move Along-by the All-American Rejects

Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone stands
Another day and you’ve had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
Move along

So a day when you’ve lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)

When everything is wrong, we move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong, we move along
Along, along, along

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through

(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
Right back what is wrong
We move along

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One response to this post.

  1. This is beautiful, Gail.
    Runs are such a wonderful way to reflect, heal, grieve, and connect with the emotions we sometimes don’t take time to process. I am so glad you run.

    I am so glad I have had the good fortune to cross paths with you through running.
    Life is full of the unexpected, for sure. So glad some of that is good!
    xo

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